... I stayed home alone on Saturday night

I'm incredibly lonely. I know I can look after myself but I'd loved to be looked after for a change. I'm tired of being strong. I'm tired full stop really. Just to have a cuddle would be lovely and someone to share things with. I really miss human contact. I'm not sure what to do now. It's been three years and I haven't met anyone special. The people I do meet just aren't right. Maybe I want too much. Maybe I'm scared. My heart is closed and I need to be strong enough to open it but when I do I just get hurt again. I don't want to be strong anymore.